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…haven’t blogged in like forever. it’s gonna be weird blogging again, writing down “feelings” and what not. however, i do miss it. hopefully this rekindled love will revive itself. not sure how long this will last, but i do know that i’m gonna need it. too many random thoughts running through my mind to the point where it’s lost and doesn’t know where else to go. hopefully this will be my map.
anywhoo, chinese new year is but a few hours away. as each year passes, i celebrate it it less and less. i dont care much for it as much anymore. what is wrong with me?? is the american side in me taking over my traditional asian side?? maybe it’s the emo-ness that i’ve been feeling lately for the past couple months. who knows? i usually get very excited for this time of the year, but lately, it’s been “bleh”. i know i need to change and put more social energy in me, but i don’t have the motivation to push me. my mind tells me to do things, but my body physically doesn’t want to. it’s like im a droid. all i do is wake up, go to work, slave away, bring in money, be stuck in traffic, go home, sleep and repeat. goodbye social life, ever since the “bf” came into play, all we do is just “stay indoors”. my life is boring. so blah. so not me. i don’t know. like i said, too many random thoughts running around. all i want to do is just sleep and watch csi. how boring is that???? ugh! i’m so lame. i just need that push. so push away. thanks. back to the “tradition”.
